lesson from a young girl

Met a very young girl today @ a wake.

She was 7, she is currently studying in st nicks, and we started chatting about the school. how things have changed, how somethings remain, she recited the school pledge which was once so familiar, she was like a link, a key which helped open a door which i have not frequent for a long long while.

We talked about recess, excursions, teachers, school bags.

And at the table among the big sisters ( i shant say aunts, altho she was my friend's niece), she came over and hugged me. I feel her cuddling body warmth. And before we left the wake, she told her aunt that when she grows up, she wants to be like me.

@ that moment, we all laughed.

And i was touched and flattered. It's a miraculous feeling. And i'm still smiling @ the tot of it.

When can i break free?!

Hooey is dead tired.

Photos of the past

I finally get to use the lappie after a long exhausting week.

I'm tempted to search if blogger allows me to use my stylus so that i can use my actual handwriting to blog, but then thought against of it cos that will defeat the purpose of why i even got started on blogging in the first place.


certainly, this spot i'm at now was not where i had in mind when i envisioned myself with a laptop. i pictured myself in the living room, on the length of the L-shaped sofa, propped against with my nice cup of coffee when it's raining. but hey, it's aint raining now, infact its sweltering hot, and there's no way i'm going to drink hot coffee in the living room propped against the sofa with the laptop on my lap.So i'm in my parents room. Yes, blogging right beside my mum who is watching Tv.

I dunno why i always like to deviate from the main topic of my post. but well, that's me, easily distracted. i'm meeting the justians later @ char's place for mid-autumn, or at least i hope to make it in time cos i will be joining the tc clan @ bishan for dinner to discuss evie's chick party

i'm hoping to post this out before i head out. I deemed my blogging time strictly and strictly my personal space and time. it's this time throughout the week (take away the sleeping and bathing portion) that i'm strictly on my own. Yes, since when has hooey been so guarded about her privacy? Oh hanwen would know man. Yes she would.

I like blogging when there's no one around, and yet able to pull this off in an earthly hour and not when everyone around me is asleep and dousing me to do the same. How can my mind possible function and think of life's essential questions @ that point in time right?


haha

so, it's 2.47pm. A rare ocasssion when i'm at home, awake, free with my lappie! i could so buy some 4 digits to try my luck at 4D. Have you ever occured when was the last time you were truely alone to think , waste your own time with no external disturbance? No, i'm not referring to waiting for transport home. No, i'm not referring to walking to the shuttle. No, i'm not referring to you watching the TV. Hell no, i'm not even referring to you reading that story book. no, just you and your mind. Having a conversation. *dun even let me think of the word.. luna___*

well, i wanted to share this out. and i shall do it today before it becomes my next life before it comes to mind.

showcasing my new lappie. yes, i purposely tilt the screen to haolian. I got it on a Wednesday. Cant rem which date. Right, should be 12 sept.


Apparently the first software that hooey finds important is to install MSN. Hiaks. Loser. Cool I just realize We can add VIDEO to BLOGGER. Geez, i mean i knew we can do that via utube, but i din know we can do that by just a click on the tool bar.

I guess, from the background, everyone will know what this is about. I'm moving. i'm packing my stuffs, my barang barang that i collected, bought, and stayed in this house over the past 18 years. 18! i cant imagine i'm moving out at the age of 25, and it's not because i'm moving to get my own apartment. Haha, still, it's a nice change. i had fun packing, sweating it out last weekend going through all this "valuable junk".

Wanted to show this picture, cos in this little wallet contains the number of name cards i have collected after i graduated. meaning close to 1 year half. These cards were all exchanged from friends ( like i have two from inter-roller, haha, EY, PWC, CNB, BARCLAYS, CITIBANK, CSM.. just to list impressive few), gotten from business associates in the course of my ex job. There were name cards from malaysia, brunei, singapore, Korea even!

Now, next page might spot some people's violent reaction....haha (dramatise)

Crescendo!!!!! okay, i forgot to mention only stnicks girls will know what this is about. i'm impressed i kept these copies over the years.. St nicks, meaning i must be like 15 -16? *Morbid tot!* i particulary like to highlight one issue. yes, jingwen. Note this particular issue.
i think some of my friends might not even know this but it's okay... alright here goes.

What do ya know??? hooey had a one small short at being a journalist!
This is strictly, strictly dedicated to the one buddy i have in st nicks. wenqi. This book brought smiles and tears to me all at the same time when i took it out of my box. This book was decorated by me for wenqi to write in her thoughts, share our nonsense, which to date is hardly nonsensical but truely child-like if you ask me, (fine add in the bimboticness), she had a book decorated too where i do the same for her. It was the trend, the craze in our class to have things like this.. :buddy books. i was so proud of mine, not only because of the very nice cover but also for wenqi's painstakingly contents, lovely scrap book pictures, stickers, meaningful quotations, and of cos, sharing our "Prince William" Loot.

Next, presenting the top ten reasons why people choose NTU.

this colourful page was taken off:

This is a very valuable box. It has letters, more letters, and mountains of letters, cards, written from my friends which today, i have a grateful few which i am still in touch. my Squad, hanwen, justians, many are secret pals which i have over the years.. in acjc, in ajc. Strangely, i dont really write much in university days. Could it be because of laziness? Could it because of email?

This... This is my PRIMARY SCHOOL SONGBOOK! yup, i found my name and my class: primary 4 when i was inside. i think i lost this song book once and had to replace it cos we need this every session. It's compulsory to have your own song book. And see i even wrapped it! since when did i last wrap any book? So you got it.. my 15 year old book in my 18 year old room. Some historic artifact eh? My sister saw it and insist on keeping it. i bet she lost hers!

Last but not least.. i guess all the guys are prob bored with my girly possessions. Finally something we all 1980's will know but not the 1990s... i think.

EZ link cards.. OOPS did i just say that? no i wont bother changing.. cos young kiddos.. This is what we called.. Translink cards in our days.!!!! Do you think i can even sell these? See, the pink one are for kiddies, and blue one are for adults. Beside, we have stickers called neoprints, which fade with time. yupz, These are the neo prints and translink cards i found in my wallet. my ex ex ex wallet. I always find little treasures in my wallets. This wallet, if any of my close friends rem, i used this in j1. throughout first three months till ..somewhere end of jc1.

anyway, that ends my length past blog.. i really gotta go watch a lame movie with my mom and my sister. best way to spend saturday afternoon.. Deuce bigalow.

Good Weekend Part 2

Well, i hope if you are reading this, you have read part one which is below this post.





I'm thankful the good weekend continues to follow and frankly, i have no wish to brag in case this starts to turn out like some haolianing thing. It's just that once in a short while i like to read back on my past entries, and i can be so forgetful.





Like for example: I wanted to share how much i like discussing books with the girls. We are constantly sharing our good read with each other, lending each other book. of cos i will never forget that Von w borrowed my "angels and demons" for a good one year and did not even touch it. In fact, if she didn bring it up, i wouldn have realized my book is with her after this time. anyway, bad example on this. Haha, she does read my other books. And Angela always have interesting books with really heavy stuffs to share. And she has this habit of noting something in the books after reading that i think is really cool.








So sorry, that was still friday. so to continue with what i did on my good weekend.





Saturday noon: I went to spa!!!





yup, i tot i should really reward myself for this tiring week and to prepare myself for the upcoming week, so me and allan went ahead to spa! it was a really a 1 1/2 shiok body massage +hydrotherapy! tho time was too short!!!!! We were almost almost so convinced that we will be persuaded by the really pretty consultant to book us a package (which i was already so expecting the sale pitching before the actual spa.. i was like "NO NO NO NO NO'" ... in my head). It does sound so tempting @ that moment, but we persisted in saying we will consider.





And now thinking back, i'm so proud! i no longer find it really attractive. it's more of a want than a need and when you have some time apart and then u think back about it again, u will realize, you din really really need it. It WAS a want.





yup so after the nice spa, we headed to Maxwell market to eat chicken rice! Boo, big deal, but the rice's fragrance was enough to keep me eating more. Nice simple meal after a rather pampering spa.





We headed off to his place and his family wanted to go view some new apartments. I tagged along and was so so so so amazed at one particular unit's decor, view (of the Ferris wheel? ) and the environment.








Well, after which i went back home and it's really just slacking with my family .. and to my amazement "My Best Friend's Wedding" was just starting!!!!








i first watched that movie 10 years ago in st nicks. So it was a special movie to me. I even rem watching it in the AV room. My class loved the songs inside, we adore the movie so much. And in acjc, i rem my OG dancing to "wishing, hoping, praying"as part of our skit performance for camp fire night. So this movie brought back really fond memories.





I watched the entire show with my mum and my sis, recalling the lines spoken by Julia, by Cameron. My memory (in this department) never fail to amaze me.





Julia: Michael wants... Jello


Cameron: JELLO?? Why will he want Jello?


Julia: *shocked expression* why not?? He wants Jello .. cos Jello makes him comfortable.


Cameron: I can be Jello...


Julia: No, you cant be jello.





Anyway, that's how i rem off hand... give me the scene and i'll lipped it again like i did just now.





but the whole point of this blogging@ 12 am even tho i really want to go zzzz. is this...

" Some day.. When you're awfully low.

When the world is cold,

I will sing this song,

Thinking .. of... You,

And the way you look .. tonight"

I teared tonight @ Julia's speech for mike and Kimmy's wedding. (sorry i dont know the guy'sreal name).





i teared. As though it was something i experienced. *shakes head* sigh, it was such a sad and yet heart warming scene.





I teared for my best friend's wedding.

And with that, i end my good, mid weekend post.

Good night.

Good Weekend Part 1

It's the mid weekend. Saturday night to me is the mid of my rest time, my weekend, before i embark another brand new week @ work.

It's like the mid point, where i will find myself asking these questions.. do you??

a) So far, how is the weekend coming along? Fruitful? Did i waste my time?
b) Second, how am i going to spend the rest of it if i have wasted it, can i make it more fruitful?
c) If i had a fruitful time so far, am i going to start taking abreak and just nua the rest of it (slack @ home, having met my so called "quota" of activities?

Perhaps no one is so calculative and boliao like me to ask these questions. If it was me in the past, i think i would have without a doubt just spend the whole weekend slacking bumming on my bed, enjoying my late cup of coffee, tuck myself back in bed in the afternoon with my aircon *hopefully blasting* and a good book @ hand.

well, am i getting a point with this blabbering? Ah yes, so i strikes me cos i din know when i started (unknowingly) asking myself these questions. And this weekend, right now @ midpoint of it, .. i am very proud to say my weekend has been good. A really good weekend to point of writing.

Friday night: i met up with the girls @ Waruku- Marina Square and saw Edmund Chen along the way. We had a good fun meal catching up, sharing our recent trips. ( you will be amazed with us girls in the span of three months, 4 of 6 have travelled out of SG to places like Perth, Hanoi, Ho Chi Minn) 3 out of 4 went Vietnam. Well, just sharing statistics.

so after dinner we headed off to city space, it was like my first trip there lah. abit ulu but hey, better late then never they say.

I like the place, we had our usual fun, ordering mocktails (sadly i dun think the bulk of my group, including myself can say we like talking over wine, beer. ) we just aren that high on alcohol. I love this group, cos we share fears, we share some apprehension, we share the past and i like to think, while we are sharing bits and pieces of our present, we will continue this tradition to extend this sharing to the future.

I pulled out something from my bag which shocked everyone, which provided some sort of entertainment while reminiscing. After which, the rest had to take part in some small activity to complete that little something for me.

If i've got the chance, i snap some pictures to share.

ART: Article of Random Thoughts and ARK: Act of Random Kindess

After a long month, i finally found myself with both the energy and resources to come back online. This time, with a new laptop- a HP tablet PC.

I have took some pictures of it and will post it up the next time coz my camera is running on low batt. I'm taking some time getting used to windows vista and using a stylus, but sigh, i think that cant beat my typing, so here i am comfortably typing away even though it's at 12.36 am.

How should i summarise what's been going through for the past month? on second thought, i dont quite feel like doing that. fickle, spontaneous, whatever.

I've caught Evan Almighty last night and finished reading Mitch Albom's Tuesday with Morris this evening.

Different medium, quite different story lines but yet i took something along with me at the end of it.

How should i put it?

I always feel better after watching, reading stories like this. It makes me feel more alive, more aware of my blessings, more compassionate towards others.

Some scourn at Evan almighty for it's seemingly incredible story line. I am no christian as to speak, but i think having a faith to do something, even when everyone seem to go against you, appear to be so much more intensed, satisfying, and somewhat worth living. Being rated as a lunatic, an insane fool when nobody else stands on your side is so tearful. I'm guilty of many a times judging certain people just because they do things totally out of the norm.

When you pray for something? Does it come falling on your lap? Or does it present as an opportunity to display that something? Meaningful lines and i cant agree any better that Morgan Freeman's the one to deliver this speech.

As for Tuesday with Morrie, i think about death. i think about how given a chance, i will not live my life over again. every moment i have taken till now, be it ups, downs, u-turns, circles, i have not regret. Without any of them, i probably will not be who i am today.


People are only mean when threatened. How true. Truth be told, i have seen the nasty side of me sometime during the past month. Tho i was not able to pin -point why and what could have triggered this half nasty, half guilt streak that's rising in me. And today, i' learnt it was threat. and i've learnt to detach away from it unknowingly even before reading the book and with that, i think i do deserve a pat on the back.


What else have i done?


i woke up at 5.30 am on tuesday morning, so as to make it for a 7.30 am teleconference. What's interesting was the change in people i see on the way to work, demographic change from the working population to the studying population. Working adults on their laptops to noisy boys rushing out their last minute assignment. Cooler air as lesser people around on the streets. If you listen more, you can hear nature talking back instead of the hassle of man-made creations such as traffic.


I was at training this week when i had the chance to see my vendor's house in the states when he showed us pictures of his house on his laptop. Beautiful garden, 4 acres of land and awonderful green plains extending to the forest to be cornered by picket fences.


With all these experiences, it really made me wonder....y they are deeply etched in my mind when i want to blog. Have i been asking too much that i take things for granted? Or do i feel this yearning in me because i have been asking for the wrong things all this while?

independence, self-centred... poles of opposite forces?